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Jade Roper Tolbert Says It’s ‘Time to Heal’ from Miscarriage Ahead of Procedure

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TheBachelor in Paradisealum, 36, shared a photoon Instagramfrom a hospital, where she lays with tears in her eyes.

In the caption of the shot, she wrote, “Well, here we are. I didn’t want or expect it to go this way, but it is. I so badly wanted to bury him under a beautiful tree in our yard, to see any glimpse of his tiny body, which is I why I held out so long trying to trust my body. But, it is time to heal and get to the other side of this loss.”

“And to Beau, I carried your body for almost 5 months, your soul for a little less, but I carry you with me in my heart every where and for always💗,” she concluded.

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She added, “I feel like I’m on an emotional rollercoaster … centered and rooted at times, and other times like I’m free falling trying to grasp onto anything that feels sane.”

Earlier this month, Roper Tolbert announced her miscarriage in anemotional Instagram post, writing, “I’ve been struggling with what to write here as I’ve been navigating a miscarriage.”

Roper Tolbert then explained: “I’m currently experiencing what is called a missed miscarriage, so while his heart has stopped and he has stopped growing (for some time now), my body hasn’t released the pregnancy yet. I am hoping to do this naturally and am trusting in timing and in my body under the care of my provider.”

“I’ve been carrying him with so much pride and cherish every moment still left with part of him, but it has also been equally as challenging and devastating,” Roper Tolbert went on to write.

source: people.com