The formerBachelorcontestant, 24, got real on her Instagram Story Monday about “one of the biggest regrets” she has concerning her pregnancy with her now-5-month-old daughterRuth Ray De La Luz.
“I would definitely do a lot different,” said Martinez. “I didn’t savor the pregnancy. I feel like a lot of people say this but I really felt it this morning. I was like, ‘Man, I wish I had cherishedthat time having her in my belly, and really just had more of a chance to celebrate it.’ ”
She also shared that she and Ruth’s dad, boyfriendGrayston Leonard, “had a hard time in [their] relationship throughout the pregnancy.”
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But once the couple welcomed their first child together in early February, “it was like everything changed.”
“A lot of the animosity and stress and resentment we were holding towards each other went away when we had her, which I’m grateful for, but I wish we got tohave fun while I was pregnant,” Martinez shared.
The new mom — who appeared on season 22 ofThe Bachelor— and Leonard began dating in early 2018 andlearned they were expectingthree months into their relationship, going on to welcome their daughter together on Feb. 2 of this year.
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“I’msaying parenting is hard sometimes. It’s not being ungrateful for a healthy child, it’s being human and struggling and being transparent about that,” she said, adding in another comment that she never said her own daughter “sucks” but rather, “She’s awesome.”
source: people.com
